PLEASE READ ALL AND TELL ME YOUR THOUGHTS AND OPINIONS!!!!

well as many of you know i used to have, (1.5 years ago) a 24 year old boyfriend (while i was 15). His name was Eli, i met him in a park while i was dating Jobe. We exchanged numbers and when Jobe and i werent working out i started talking to him....

but let me back up to Jobe. I was 14 and trying to be "rebelious" he met me on Vampirefreaks when he was 17. I lived in Spokane Washington and he lived in El Paso Texas or w/e. We talked and ended up having an internet relationship. After about 9 months of taling online christmas time was coming and he wanted to meet me in real life. So he came up and i snuck him into my house and into my closet. During the three days he was with me noone knew he was there. I was still a Virgin and wanted to lose it, and he came prepared, we had sex the first night he was there, and then later in the night he came out naked and i played with his penis. After everything he left that sunday.

back to were i was... Eli and i met up at the park and we kissed and he touched my breasts. At this time i knew that he had been married and had a child already. A week later we met again and went for a walk, and ended up in a cemetary, there he played with the inside of my pants with his hands. The third time we met at the cemetary he brought a condom and lube and we had sex, he got off in me. i had to walk home with it in me. I never would wash it out, just leave it in me. That night, the third time i was with him, i wanted him to spend the night, so i went home and got ready and snuck him in later. That night we had sex, unprotected, about 4 times, each time he ejaculated, and in the morning i snuck him out. A week later i snuck him back in and we had more sex, and i jacked him off onto my chest. Another week passed and i decided to go to his apartment and we snuck into the room in the basement.. we had sex like two times and i snuck home... a few days passed and i snuck back, he bought a bottle of bacardi razz and we drank it together, we had sex a few times and i let him give me a tattoo above my pussy of his initials. He took pictures of me naked and my pussy and him fucking me. The last time in washington i was on my period so we had to use a condom.. i would say we had sex about 15 times unprotected in washington..

Then i moved to louisiana, and hated it, so i called him to take me away but he couldnt, so i had jobe do it. By the time we got to his house the cops found us and i was returned to louisiana. So i was grounded and we moved to Bullhead City, Arizona.

A while later in BHC Elis wife emailed me telling me he was still married and a level 3 sex offender. He told me they were split up and having problems, he showed me his digihitch telling of his life and travels, it made me feel sorry for him i guess? so early in January 2006 he emailed me telling me he was in town, i met him a few blocks away and he talked me into going with him. So i went home took a shower, packed my things, deleted my pictures and accounts, and left out my window. We left and went to laughlin across the river.

We went to a park across the river and immediately we had sex, of course unprotected, and of course he got off in me. We drove away and a while later pulled to the side of the road and had sex. After a few hours of driving we pulled off again and had sex, he got off and he played with my pussy and got me off. All sex off the road was in the front seat of the car. After a long long drive we ended up having sex again, for the last time. We needed money for gas and i gave him all of mine, we ended up in Blythe and he said he was going to go pawn some stuff and didnt want me waiting in the car so i got out and left all my stuff except my purse. He never came back.

So i called the cops and was returned home, all of my clothes were found on the side ofthe road but he ended up with my camera, dvd player, and some other stuff.

Then in March '07 i started dating Jacob, after two months with him and telling him i love him, (and alot of protected sex, he was a virgin), Eli messaged me telling me he loved me. A part of me still loved him and wanted to get away, and i sent him nude pictures of me, spreading my pussy and shwing off to him.... i had never done anything like this for jacob... and i had for jobe, though i had never met him before that one time... then after a while Eli messaged Jacob showing him how fucked up i am and how i cant be faithful....

So i dont know, am i really this whore that everything makes me to be?? am i the only one to have done such bad things??.. Jacob says he forgave me, and i can see how much i hurt him and betrayed him... Please give me your honest opinion on all of this?!?

Thank You,
Sarah Corzine